I'm only asking for the chance of being happy.
You'll may judge as much as you wish but you'll never know why the heart does what it does.
Illusions I won't let arrive to my head follow me as fireworks ready to explode.
I'm afraid for her friendship, I'm afraid for the words said today.
If I could only make them see what I feel, maybe and just maybe the'd stop cursing me as I'm sure they must be doing by now, almost three years I'm praying they're not throwing to the trash can.
But you have to know that every day I spent my nights praying for somebody to love, and that maybe and just maybe that person is always the wrong one.
I don't care about metric or rythm, but I care about my feelings, so you must think my dear friends that in love you don't have own will, the words and the acts possessed me and I'm sorry for the danger I made.
But be sure that my only intention is not hurting her, I'm sorry for all the misinterpratation and the words that he said.
Don't loose your heads, don't imagine me in hell, or at least not without knowing that she has forgiving me and that we are the ones involved in this, i don't want our friendship to be damaged.
Neverthless I know I didn't have the right to say what I said, but think I didn't do it to hurt, I did it because my heart is in complete confusion.
Some of you will judge me... probably.
Some of you will hate me... I hope not for long.
But please stop and have compassion of my lonely heart.
This last year the sky fell all over me, so many situations, so much wind, so many thunders and storms, each problem as a black cloud full of pain and sadness... I even have thought that I had no right to be happy, you may think of me as selfish or ambitious, but I'm just a human being... a devastated one.
All I wish for this year is that life change its decrepit color.


creí que nunca más escribiría.. pero es como si hubiera pensado que no volvería a respirar...

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I feel empty inside.
No joy and no disguise.
Lonely through the night.
Waiting for something to find.
Illusion please do not hide,
I need you by my side.